A Celebration of…What?

Visiting my family in San Diego was the most exciting part of my childhood that I always looked forward to doing. The moment I would step off the airplane and walk through the passenger boarding bridge, I could smell the California air and I knew I was “home.” I would completely release my life in Texas and it felt as if I was exactly where I belonged. But, this trip… is exclusively different. My heart is sinking into an abyss of despair. I didn’t catch the smell of the air or feel the familiar comfort of being “home”- instead, I…

My New Reality (Part 2)

Here’s the finale of how my new reality ultimately transposed. It started with some photographs. In the midst of doing something absolutely unmemorable, I came across a photo collection of my niece and I, which turned to an absolutely memorable moment. I sat there completely mesmerized by them, as I diligently examined every picture, one-by-one. They beamed an unexpected ray of hope in the midst of my dark state of mind. At first, of course, my attention initially geared towards how clear my skin used to be, then I suddenly felt saddened that I didn’t appreciate myself during my younger…

Self Suicide (Part 1)

My life turned upside-down and inside-out when I became plagued by cystic acne. It appeared on my back, upper arms, chest, neck and face. It all started with a couple, boil like bumps that appeared on my back, which occasionally occurred throughout my life, so I didn’t think too much about them. Little did I know… those pumps would mark the beginning to my dead end path of self suicide. Within a matter of a week from the initial onset of those bumps, they began to multiply in a manner I have never experienced before. They emerged at such rapid…

Out of Tune

I’ve experienced many life altering incidents between the time of my previous blog going down, to now. So, I’ve been attempting to devise a timeline to establish where exactly I should begin.  It’s been difficult.  It’s been challenging to mentally go back to a period of time and compartmentalize all my thoughts and emotions into words. As I am accustomed to mostly writing in the present moment. The instant I would sit down to start writing, it would feel as if my mind would crash head-on, into utter writers block. I would just sit there, diving into an abyss of…

Wordless Famine

I’ve reached the finale of my wordless famine. I’ll start at the end.  Due to complete carelessness… I lost my prior blog. It’s as simple as, I somehow neglected to update my payment account with my new debit card. I missed the email that my auto renewal wouldn’t process, due to my card not working. I found out by the disappearance of my webpage. My heart thumped into a silent panic within myself- I couldn’t accept it. I never knew this could ever happen- I never imagined this would happen. I “assumed” I could just repurchase my Hosting account and…